I Rise

I fought his demons in the dark
Claws at my neck
Teeth on my heart
Dragged by my hair across the floor
World came crashing
Left me bleeding
Promises turned to smoke
And hope she finally broke
Face in the dirt blood in my hair
Screamed at the sky until heaven went black
Why
Shame wrapped tight a scarlet noose
Preached from pulpits
While I lay trembling
Bloodstained naked on the floor
Clawed back to life
From ash and shame
I rise I rise
With fire in my name
Nobody asked if I was okay
Whispered rumors turned away
Too messy to help too loud to pray
Sat alone in the ash and decay
Filled the pews and judged the scene
Said too messy too stained
Like pain made me contagious
Survival made me shameful
As if trauma’s a sin you can wash away
Family said she’s not quite right
Blocked me while I fought for life
Judged the bruises I didn’t post
Turned their backs when I needed them most
I was ashes I was rot
I was everything your gospel forgot
I was shame you refused to name
Ghosted me in Jesus name
Clawed back to life
From ash and shame
I rise I rise
With fire in my name
Nobody asked if I was okay
Labeled dismissed erased
No food for my child
No light in the house
Just frostbit mornings
And silence too loud
Hope begged
Bled
Choked on goodbye
Shattered in my throat
Buried in a scream
No grave
No name
In silence
Hope died
Clawed back to life
From ash and shame
I rise I rise
With fire in my name
Two ravens from above
Dusted me off
Said have brave faith
Clawed back to life
From ash and shame
I rise I rise
With fire in my name
Because no one came
When hope died
Clawed back to life
From ash and shame
I rise I rise
With fire in my name
Clawed back to life
From ash and shame
I rise I rise
With fire in my name
Clawed back to life
From ash and shame
I rise I rise
With fire in my name